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Ally Antolin / 20 / A.Y. ♡

9/1/14 9:17 pm

It’s almost the end of the year already. Holy shit.

8/29/14 6:06 am

What is sleep?

"If people refuse to look at you in a new light and they can only see you for what you were, only see you for the mistakes you’ve made, if they don’t realize that you are not your mistakes, then they have to go."

"Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia. (…) You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present."

8/21/14 1:52 am

Today made me realize that I should cherish the random moments that come along. Even with my cat passing away, I still have so many other people to spend time with and cherish. I have an amazing family, boyfriend, and friends. Harlowe may not be here anymore.. but his death truly taught me a lesson. Cherish your loved ones and the things you love. Moments don’t last forever so you have to live life to the fullest.

8/19/14 3:16 am

I lost everything

8/18/14 3:24 am

I can’t stop crying, Harlowe. The fact that you’re not anywhere to be seen before I sleep is giving me anxiety.. I miss you so much. I’m in so much pain.. If I sleep, I hope my dreams are of you.

8/17/14 6:35 pm

Dear Harlowe,
I can’t believe you’re gone. Seeing the way you were, gasping for air and looking at me with your depressing eyes.. I couldn’t let you go on like that. I knew you were telling me it was your time to go. As devastated as I was, knowing that I was going to lose my best friend.. I just had to let you go. It was the best decision. I can’t explain the heavy feeling in my heart. All the times that I thought my heart was broken.. it surely doesn’t even come close to this. My heart will forever hold a void since I can’t see you anymore. You’re the first one to greet me at the door when I came home. You would meow at me in the kitchen, begging for treats. You would let me cuddle with you until you were sleepy. Knowing that you’re not following behind me around the house, I don’t know what to do. I was so attached to you and you were everything to me. I raised you since you were a kitten. 2 years of a life is too short.. but with your illnesses, I knew you weren’t going to live a full life. But I didn’t know you were going to go so soon.. I wish I would have cherished you more and loved you more, but I know that I loved you with everything I had. I’m so sorry we had to part. I will always remember all those times we had together. I know God led me straight to you at the animal shelter for a reason. You were a very special cat. Rest in peace, baby Harlowe. I’ll see you again someday.